I vowed to set my new year's intentions on the new moon, January 9. And it was wise to wait for that moment, because when they day came so many things I had been clinging to fell away and I was somehow cleansed of the need to add on more and more to fill my time and 'goals' to have for the new year. I was able to see that actually I want to simplify. What do I want to do in 2016? It's not run a half marathon or master 12 recipes. It's simply to be myself, be present, build community, serve others, share my gifts, create, write.
I intend to write in this space on Sundays, to kind of keep track of what ideas and things I'm exploring. I thought this week I'd write about Christianity. It was just Three Kings Day, the Epiphany, and I got to celebrate with my Puerto Rican family. I've been reading Gilead by Marilynne Robinson and reading up about Thomas Merton and I have humility on the mind.
The humility of winter. I'm craving winter this year. I want to go dormant, clear, calm, sleepy. Relax into cooking and building for the flourishing in the spring I trust will come.
When the time came to write though, I wrote a song. I have no idea how to play the guitar and I can't carry a tune. But my brother-in-law gave me a guitar yesterday, and tonight I started strumming. Here's what came out. It's called 'Heaven Knows':
Well first you swerved/ upon my dock/ then you just fell completely/ I had just one line/ could toss you down/ so you could rise/ and see me.
And I seemed young/ out on the shore/ but then you did just/ meet me/ And your ship sails/ tomorrow morn/ for now we'll talk/ discretely
Cos heaven knows/ and mercy too/ you could love me/and I could love you/ Yes heaven knows/ and mercy too/ you could love me/ and I could love you (2x)
You're a fool for knots/ and treasures torn/ your hair's not shorn/ your mouthy is salty/ But as we watched/ the moon was born/ It rocked the sea/ so sweetly
And we were young/ out on the shore/ although you did just/ meet me/ Your ship sails/ out in the morn/ for now we'll dance/ discretely
Cos heaven knows/ and mercy too/ that you love me/ and I love you/ Yeah heaven knows/ and mercy too/ that you love me/ and I love you. (2x)
Our eyes were locked/ the music poured/ the gulls all flocked/ but we're not sleepy/Then from the north/ they cried all aboard/ and you swore/ you'd never forget me
But you were young/ out on the shore/ and, well, you did/ just/ meet me/Your ship sailed/ that very morn/ and I slipped off/ discretely
But heaven knows/ and mercy too/ that you loved me/ and I loved you/ Yeah heaven knows/ and mercy too/ that you loved me/ and I loved you/ Yes heaven knows/ and mercy too/ you loved me/ I sure loved you/ Yeah heaven knows/ and mercy too/ you loved me; I loved you too.